Megan!

Fri, 16 May 2008 12:01:25 GMT

im upset
im turning 22 and i felt like i missed out on being 21. i kept myself really busy on purpose so i wouldnt have to think about anything but now i wish i would have..i guess just dealt with it. also it really kills me when girls say they are fat. I just wish people didnt have to voice their insecurities to me over and over. i can give you my gym membership if you just stop talking and go.

my moms here and i told her she should come visit me more often and she said that i should just come to sd more often. i dont really know what i am avoiding in sd, but it seems like there is something? i really have no idea what it is.
an empty house
missing sandy
missing mum-mum
i guess those are a start
i just need people to keep on visiting me here. so far its worked out pretty well.
i missed my sleeping appointment yesterday and now i am getting worried that i will never be able to fix this sleeping pattern of mine.

i am just a whole bunch of pessimism right now, which is really not attractive.
what i really need is a hug

this weekend i am painting rorschachs...

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 10:41:16 GMT

-I have a really big show coming up in april...I want people to come
and its not just my show but people will be there and it makes my stomach turn because i just want my pieces to be the best or at least highly esteemed. (scary)
-constant dreams of being chased down
+film class
+going to pentagram design studio. their logo for the california academy of science is so amazing. not really the logo but the concept behind it.
-i wish i could keep in better contact with people
-i still need to write thank yous for christmas presents. i was planning on combining those with valentines but that came and went
+this is the last weekend for the olafur eliasson exhibit so i need to fit that in somewhere
-i have these friends from school that go out every weekend but that shows in their work and im not much for the clubbing scene. this weekend theyre doing the whole 80s thing yeahh
-my best friend just got a new boyfriend so now im afraid i wont see her as much. shes the one who usually keeps me sane
+im going to see cursive with a boy from vt (also scary) the last show i went to before that was minus the bear in like november?
-i am going from sf to oakland at least 3 times a week and its really expensive and i hate waiting in traffic for an hour but once i get to oakland screenprinting is actually very relaxing. i just wish there was 1 really big campus instead of it being split or just a car from the jetsons
-also i think i need air in my tires and i have no idea how to go about that.
ok. the end

happy dance

i heart engineers

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 05:21:43 GMT

free movies all weekend was funsies
the last mimzy was amazing, ah so good

im packing up and as much as ive wanted to leave so badly, there is a part of me that feels like im bailing on all the good friends i have here
anyways ill be home in a couple days
trying to go see minus the bear

bittersweet

<3 pinkberry

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 09:52:15 GMT

so i was upset, but now im not so upset
i have no reason to be
im home for a week and to me leaving is the right thing to do
i seriously need to make up my mind

i still sabatoge every single relationship i have
anyways boys are lame

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 10:42:10 GMT

again not sleeping
ive been skipping lots of classes
which has become my new thing i guess

some girl hated on my animation and it ruined my day
poppa chris is making a flash video to keep me from transferring
i couldnt want to leave more but i dont know if ill ever get out...

matthew barney doesnt know how to answer questions

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:32:39 GMT

its late, or early
i have to pick my mom up from the hospital around 11
then i have painting till 5
i hope i have time to take some pictures of/in the snow
to say the least im hoping for a snow day
i just finished my cd for otis
and im exhausted but something wont let me sleep

when erin mentioned i was transferring big poppa chris actually tried to convince me out of it
i was genuinely surprised, i still am
sometimes i wonder if im leaving a good thing
i mean my teachers dont even mind if i dont show up
and my studio has now become my primary home

at least today we get to go into the sound studio to spit some traxxx
or some dialogue
till later, probably not

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 17:27:48 GMT

its another rainy day

no sólo de pan vive el hombre y no de excusas vivo yo

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 17:50:14 GMT

a man will kill himself if the sun doesnt shine today
another man, a farmer will die if it doesnt rain

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 02:47:27 GMT

merry christmas eve
im ready to go home

my mom had us attend one of those services that is like walk in with a wheelchair and walk out a new man. yeah

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 09:50:35 GMT

im booooored
boo

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nothing new

www.obeygiant.com

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 10:14:58 GMT

last final - human sexuality
last project - 30x44 oil
and the week is over

last trip to hawaii, sunday

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 06:51:36 GMT

http://www.collegehumor.com/movies/1604601/

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 21:17:51 GMT

i dont know what he sees in her

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 00:51:32 GMT

ive been trying to let things work out
but the volvo is all messed up
i wont get it back, if i get it back for a couple weeks from carland collision

plus turns out i know some really shitty people
yep

drop a heart, break a name

Tue, 24 May 2005 06:08:13 GMT

hallmark is officially closing june 26th
im sad about it, but i do get a bonus so thats cool

im going to work there till then
betty, the owner, is transferring her manager to the other store in tierrasanta
and by that time i will be headed off to hawaii

so it kinda works out cause i would be quitting anyways
but i was just so suprised
at least i will have a good reccomendation though for next time
and i might just work weekends there when i get back, who knows

i hope they put in something cool, hip and exciting in its place..
jamba juice?

anyways its finals week, and i have tons to do!
rather than studying right after school i found a great pair of heels with my name on em haha

Thu, 19 May 2005 05:30:14 GMT

i had a really nice birthday day.

i was supposed to go up to la today though
but i guess im not there

goodnight moon

roar

Sun, 15 May 2005 16:21:34 GMT

i dont like getting calls early in the morning
or people slandering bush when they dont even know the half of what theyre talking about

i just got woken up.
bday: 2 days

hitchhikers guide is out today! i want to go go go

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 02:38:47 GMT

i renewed my license this morning
i was totally out of place there but thats ok
i took my brush and lipgloss so hopefully my picture will be cute. haha
2-3 weeks

other than that ive just been doing lots of work
and the faints coming back into town, im not sure but i think i want to go
either that or see of montreal and tilly
so i dont know, we'll see :)

ps im scared to hear from usd

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 03:18:35 GMT

its my birthday in exactly one month :)
im not sure what to do for it.

right now though
im a little sick
tomorrow i hope to be magically better
and on time to economics hehe

good hair day wink wink

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 03:20:05 GMT

i love doing nothing when i have things to do and people to see
its just not fun the other way around

only a tiny bit of hope left, there used to be so much

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 05:16:10 GMT

plnu suuuuuuuuucks
i am very upset/depressed with you
i will write back if i get another letter from your university
probably not but i can leave that open for revision

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 11:40:33 GMT

i saw the ring today
i was truly scared
i covered my eyes
ill miss you michelle!!

i hope this weekend ends up nicely
fingers crossed

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 13:53:53 GMT

tome mi mama al aeropuerto este manana. ella no lloro y no se.. pero pense seria diferente
no estoy seguro que tendre el sueno hoy pero esta bien
pienso que ire al cine este tarde con tania.. ojala que si
night
ps necessito encontrar algo

she cried, its ok now

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 11:38:09 GMT

i absolutely love it when all my friends are around
absolutely makes me wonderfully happy :)

this week will be so much fun
and i actually enjoyed myself at rocky, very nice
bravo

night
brad, happy bday

parking citation for me :/

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 07:12:42 GMT

raul
just kinda rolls off the tongue